a while back on my other blog, i posted about being depressed. i am happy to say, this has not been an issue recently. i am sure there were a number of reasons why i was depressed then and not now. when things are going well, i don't feel the need to analyze why - almost in fear of disturbing a delicate balance.
the thing, i think that most people don't get about depression, is that, for me, it's not necessarily tied to external circumstances. i mean, i expect to feel sad when something bad happens. that's not what i consider depression. feeling bad when everything is going well, however, i have a hard time dealing with. feeling this way puzzles people, myself included.
i do not pretend i will never be depressed again. part of dealing with anxiety and depression is, i think, an acceptance that i will irrationally feel bad from time to time. but at least now, it is not dominating my life. not in the least.
Posted by Mike at February 19, 2004 10:43 AM